Being a single 30-year-old is a kinda getting people around me worried. Recently I found out that the one I cared the most has already moved on & may have lead a happy life now. So.... I guess it is time for me to make a step forward. I want to give myself a chance.
Everyone deserve a chance. So guys out there, be prepared. Here I come! Hahahaa!!
Dont know where should I begin to write. Do you believe in reincarnation? I do. I believe I owed him so much to the extent that I need to repay him with the rest of my life.
I know it's over but I just cant seem to get over it. I still worried sick about him whenever I hear something bad happened to him. It has been a year though. Friends have been telling me Im a good person who deserves a better man. He is not worth it.
Frankly speaking, I myself think the same but... I guess Im just another typical stupid woman. Denying myself a few chances of being loved & to love for the past 12 months. All I want now is my memory of "us" being wiped out completely from my head. So that I can begin with a new life & the guts to place hopes on others again.
Friends have been very supportive so far & even bought me flowers for my birthday. Really appreciate it. Thank you. Thank you all so much.....
dont know why. i feel really lonely tonite. i wish there is someone who is able to bring me joy, laughter & happiness but i guess not everyone can have that. hmmm....
i hate it when people tell me dont be so choosy & u will find your happiness. im not being choosy. just felt im better off by myself if i meet someone that's not right for me.
life ain't always perfect. the one you wish to have never come close & the one you want them to remain the way it is will come after you.
At first I was reluctant to go out with my youngsters colleagues cos they are all at the age of 22-23 & I was afraid of the age gap but after one of them asking me a few times, I decided to go cos me too have nothing to do after work & hopefully by going out, my mum wont have to be worried about my social life with my desktop. Haha!
Surprisingly it turns out to be an enjoyable evening being with them. In fact, I enjoyed their company so much. Making me feel young again. The way they do their shopping was a bit scary though cos they acted as if everything is free one, no need to pay one. They search high & low, making all the clothes soooo messy, just like an earthquake has hit 1Utama but it was fun. Haha! Pity those promoters.....
Thank you, girls! Looking forward to our next outing.
Today I went to The Curve with my family, bumped into a colleague while I was walking with my brother. She was selling some stuff at the free market there. Just when I approached her, she said to me "oh! this time I catch you pak tor already". Of course immediately I told her that this guy is my brother. My mum & sis are just a few steps behind us.
The thing is I've told my colleagues a million times that Im not dating anyone currently. In fact, I've not been into any relationship for the past 8 months. Why cant they believe me? Am I that good?
Honestly speaking, Im just an ordinary looking girl living with a very boring lifestyle. U see.... I dont go clubbing, I dont like karaoke which all my frens are crazy over it, I dont smoke, I rarely hang out cos most of my frens are all either busy with their kids, hubbies or career, etc.
Recently my mum is starting to worry about me cos she knew I bought clothes online without going out physically to shop for it. I've been sticking to my deskstop day & nite when I dont need to work.
On one Saturday, my brother came home at nite & saw me as usual sitting in front of my PC watching drama, he asked "Dont you think it's bored to be with the PC for such a long time? Go out & have a drink with your frens". I replied to him "It's even more boring just to sit at home doing nothing, watching drama on my PC is a better option"
Do you think there's something wrong with me??? I dont know.
